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First Knitting Class, Part 2

15 Friday Jan 2010

Posted by Ginny Marie in Uncategorized

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For Part 1, please click here.

The knitting class advertised at the public library read “For beginning knitters.” I have never picked up knitting needles before, so I thought I was a perfect fit for this class!

When I went to register two weeks before the one-time class was going to be held, I discovered there was a waiting list. I was so disappointed! I put my name on the list, hoping that maybe they would schedule another class if it was popular. I was number eight.

The day of the class came. A librarian called, and told me that I would be able to attend. I stammered, “I’ll be there,” and then rushed around trying to find the supplies I would need. I’m usually a quick study, so I imagined coming home with a finished sachet, which was the evening’s project.

When I walked into the room at the library, right on time, I saw at least 20 women sitting around tables arranged in a large “U” shape. A television camera was at the closest corner of the “U”, ready to tape the class for the library cable channel. I grabbed my handouts, and sat in the seat closest to the camera. I figured if I was right next to the huge camera, it wouldn’t catch me in my stay-at-home mom’s getup: no make-up, air-dried hair, comfy clothes.

Class started. The first step was a piece of cake. Make a slip knot with your yarn, and put your needle into the loop. I already knew how to make a slip knot, so I was helping the people around me make their slip knots. This was going to be so easy!

Then, we were supposed to put the other needle into the yarn loop, cross it behind the first needle. Next step: bring the yarn around the right needle, in between both needles, pull the yarn through the loop, loop the loop you made over the top of the left needle.

I was stuck. I couldn’t visualize what the instructor wanted us to do. I sat there, frozen with my needles crossed, while women around me were gaily looping away. I tried to follow the pictures on my handout. I still couldn’t fathom what I was supposed to do. The instructor came over. “You look like a woman in need!” she exclaimed. Yes, I was clearly in need! She showed me effortlessly how to cast on.

I started “casting on.” The instructor announced “Cast on 24 stitches.” I counted my stitches. I had 28. I unraveled some while the instructor showed us the next step. I was down to 20 stitches now. I started adding more stitches. The instructor checked on me. “Are you knitting or still casting on?” I stared dumbly at my needles.

“I don’t know.”

“You’re casting on!” she told me. Oh. I thought I was knitting!

I finished my 24 stitches, and the woman next to me showed me how to do the knit stitch, while the instructor started teaching the purl stitch.

I decided to stick with the knit stitch.

When I had barely four rows of stitches, the instructor quickly went over casting off, and the class was over.

While I didn’t learn as much about knitting as I thought I would, some of the mysteries of knitting were unraveled. I now know casting on and the knit stitch. As I look at my mother’s knitting supplies, however, I find other mysteries that I will never solve. Mom wasn’t a fan of the color yellow, yet there are two beautiful skeins of soft yarn named “lemonade”. What was she going to make with all that yellow yarn? There is also some beautiful knitting still attached to a pair of circular needles. Was she knitting another prayer shawl? Who was the unfinished project meant for?

I don’t know if I’ll ever have the heart to finish the knitting project Mom began. As I practice my knitting at home, though, I’m discovering that knitting is addicting. I feel a connection with Mom; and while I still have a lot to learn, I know that every time I pick up my knitting needles, I’ll remember her.

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First Knitting Class, Part 1

13 Wednesday Jan 2010

Posted by Ginny Marie in Uncategorized

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I have never felt the desire to learn how to knit. This obsession with knitting came on quite suddenly. Here’s the story of how my obsession came about.

Last November, while I was sitting next to Mom’s bed in her hospice room, I often wrapped a long, soft and comfy prayer shawl around my shoulders. I had found it on Mom’s chair at home, and I brought it to hospice to comfort her. In the end, it comforted me during those long hours.

After Mom’s funeral, I found a different prayer shawl in her room, and asked my Dad if I could bring it home with me. It has a triangular shape, and is knitted from soft, fuchsia yarn. Dad didn’t know who had knitted it, but I brought it home with me anyway. Having it draped over my shoulders reminds me of Mom.

As I’ve held the fuchsia prayer shawl, I’ve wondered: Who made this for Mom? Did they say prayers for Mom as they were knitting it?

Mom wasn’t a lifelong knitter; she learned how to knit as a teenager, and she took up knitting again only in the last few years of her life. She would knit small, warm hats to give to preemies in the hospital. She knit prayer shawls to give to women who needed comfort. While knitting a prayer shawl, Mom would say prayers for the special person the shawl would go to.

Somehow, when when we were visiting my Dad for Christmas, I got it into my head that I wanted to learn how to knit. It would be a special connection to Mom. So I asked Dad if I could bring her knitting things to my house.

I signed up for a knitting class at the library. It was a one-night class; not a big commitment. But the class was full. I was eighth on the waiting list, so I assumed I would never get in.

The day of the class, a librarian called. There was room for me to come! I opened Mom’s knitting bag, and searched for the supplies that I needed.

As I was looking through her yarn, I spotted a small ball of soft, fuchsia yarn.

It didn’t dawn on me for a few minutes…then I realized…Mom must have knit the fuchsia prayer shawl!

(to be continued…)

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