Blessings

“ComeLordJesusbeourguest…” My mother-in-law used to admonish us when we prayed too quickly. She insisted we slow down as we prayed, so that we could think about what we were saying instead of rattling off our prayer. Sometimes it seemed painstakingly slow as we recited our prayer before we ate! She had a good point, however; it’s important to slow down and remember the blessings we take for granted.

When I set dinner in front of my two-year old, she wants to dig in immediately and often the food is too hot for her. I tell her, “Wait! It’s too hot! Wait until we pray!” Now she does it automatically. “Too hot! ComeLordJesus…” she’ll say. I inadvertently taught Emmy that we pray when our food is too hot to eat!

Even now, during this difficult time after my mother’s death, I want to remember my blessings. There are so many; some large, some little. My sister and I are gathering photos for a display at the visitation, and we are reminiscing about all the wonderful times we had with our mom. We need to hold those happy memories close to our hearts. God has given us so many blessings over the years. There will be a lot of tears in the days to come, but also a lot of laughter as our family gathers together.

Come, Lord Jesus, be our guest. Let Thy gifts to us be blessed. Amen

Mom Was a Fighter

Mom was a fighter. She was first diagnosed with breast cancer 26 years ago, when she was 40 years old. She fought like crazy to get better and have the best life she could have. She was devastated when I was diagnosed with the same disease. She could handle being a breast cancer survivor, but to have me following in her footsteps at the young age of 27 was almost more than she could bear. We got through that horrible year of surgery and chemotherapy together.

Lily was not happy when this picture was taken!

Mom and I walked the Y-Me Walk downtown Chicago a few years ago. She had found out not long before that her cancer had metastasized to her bones.

Before she died, Mom told me that she didn’t want to give up. Her cancer had mutated into a monster that just couldn’t be controlled. One of the doctors told my dad that her cancer had been a puppy that turned into a pit bull. We were all hoping that there would be another treatment, something else that she could do. Mom would have had chemotherapy in a minute. But there was nothing left. The cancer was too aggressive.

Mom, you never gave up.